not JESSIE

315th posts

2010-08-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

this is my 315th posts.

i need a new start. so blogger thank you for being there all these while but im leaving.
may or not come back.

good bye.

jessie

http://jessiechong9.livejournal.com

while watching drama

2010-07-26T08:55:00.000-07:00

halo.

im watching Summer's Desire while typing this. HAHA! i jus cannot let my hand be there.

like not doing anything.

so yup blogging is the best. teehee!

just few more weeks and jessie will be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

oh i remember what i wanna post actually leh.

ha!

in my holiday....... i will......

- learn piano at least basic from cheryl! woo!

- work. i havent been working to balance my expenses. >.<

- i wanna go picnic with my family & my baby. teehee!

- catch up with old friends. the older the better. HAHHAA!

- watch moviessss and shows

- MOST IMPORTANTLY, STUDY FOR HEALTHPSY & PSYID.

i see that you have let it go which is good. im glad.

one of the midnight

2010-07-24T08:46:00.001-07:00

do u ever do something for the sake of someone? i bet everyone did this at least once in their life time. but what matterre is not what the thing we doing but who we are doing for.
you can change for the sake of someone but have you ever question who is it for?
do that person really worth of your effort and time?
im like most people, change for our loved ones because we love them and hope they love us more too.
but i am going to change for my mighty Father.
i will start to take my work more seriously.
pay more attention to my speech and action.
also responsible with my outward presentation.
i know that when im doing for You Instead of myself, You will be there to assist me to make all come to pass.
i have seen academic improvement because of Your grace.
i will change for You.
:)

2010-07-21T09:47:00.001-07:00

this issue is a old topic but it never fails to get people talking.
it brings sweetness as well as agony at times. still, people are still confused. they fear as they dun know what future hold 4 dem or fear that things will go all awry instead.
i have explained like many many times so i didn't wanna to account again what involving in a relationship actually means to me anymore.
... for it is when both believe the right time has come with the right person.
that the time no one can escape too.
no one in the world is 100% design for u, sometimes u have to choose who u Wan to commit to exactly.
He has given us the choice to choose who to love.

my saturday

2010-07-18T10:31:00.000-07:00

halo blogger im here again

you are so old-school which makes the owner (me) feel quite unique.

HAHA

i dun like this. it really makes a different for how people response to certain stuff esp when im involved in it too.

of cos i understand that the priorities of everyone are different but it really affect me when ppl are not that enthu as i am. there are still so much for me to learn. so much to adapt to.

to me, saturday is not a saturday without service. so i will rather give up some PCS day just to attend church.

initially i couldnt understand why siqin is so adamant on attending church every weekend and miss going out with us. but yes i understand now.

jus like pastor Aries said that being in the house of God beats being any places else.

last service made me think a LOT.

the people do make a difference but does it make a difference in God's presence?

does the attendances affect or even diminish God's faithfulness?

Never will that be.

worship & praise songs rock! whereby i didnt even realize i stretched my hand so high and wide that they got suan later. HAHA

the message was awesome cos my dear Pastor Kong was de one preaching!

He really very smart-looking despite so many things happened.

Agape love :)

i SHOULD bring my notebook cos there was so much for me to note down and i really cannot type fast using my phone. haiz.

But then, Jessie was cool ytd cos i only bought my bible with me. yes nothing else. how cool! hahaha!

(P.S yes guys that carry a bible (excuse me REAL bible not iphone or itouch) with them are eye-catching)

HAHA

i shall go and pray now while i still have energy cos i hate myself for falling asleep while praying!!!

but i miss the time whereby we look towards service every weekend,

i miss the time whereby we will make so much effort to look at our very best for service,

i miss the time that we crap a little while waiting for service,

i miss the time that we went to the opposite coffeeshop and tabao back to church eat,

i miss the time that we need to worry if we have enough seats and think of many lame ways to book them,

i miss the time that i didnt want to go home and stay as late as possible to chit chat &

i miss the time that i cannot wait for the next saturday to come for service again

i miss these times.

Ciao!

Jessie

future

2010-07-16T10:10:00.000-07:00

today stats lesson is a chit-chat session.
Mr Tan asked us about why we enter our course and how we find them.... like when we were in year 1.
then what we think of our course so far and our future career..... like we are already year 3.
HAHA!
but we are actually in year 2 now la.
very interesting cos it challenge us to think through what we want in life actually.
i realize nothing much of my goals have changed.
but i more inclined to accept community service work now.

YAY! im so eggcited cos next year we are learning ABNORMAL PSYCHOLOGY!!
yup 1 of de module has changed to this!
exciting yi xia!
i like. :)

local uni wont be my choice.
i will work if there is insufficient fund for me to study aboard. ANU!!!!
and i know wo yao an exciting job career.
i wanna to be in CID in the future.
HAH!
:))

1:09am, sat, Jul 17

i didnt realize i actually didnt post this

2010-07-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

this week is another killer. 1 test, 1 presentation, 1 e-learning and 3 deadlines.

wow. very depressing.

i think the lecturer should try taking my course and undergo these to realize that they should be too good friend and set all due together in a single week.

i have fun in school today during project discussion. yes nothing register in my mind at that moment like froze there.and nicole tan was disturbing chrysan and i to pluck her arm hair for her. quite sick ah. HAHA

i feel happy dat chrysan didnt retaliate whenever nicole 'abuse' her cos she will just hit harder.

im not so gentle as chrysan so i kept slapping nicole's arm den suddenly she pinched me so hard- and twice too- plus one more slap at my left hand.

great. blue-black. i should really report to the police.

HAHA!

the first step to counter your weakness and turn them to strength is the ability to identify them.

this is really true as i couldnt believe i "conduct" experiment with myself.

i always have this mindset that if i dun eat, i will have no energy den will nua.

yup is true but most of the time im binge-eating.

like i will skipped one of de meal den my conscious will remind myself dat i shall compensate what i missed earlier and end up eating more instead.

yes, im at the state of dieting right now.

but it is really so difficult to make it come to pass.

i can hold on without eating latest till afternoon den once the hunger pang hit me, my stomach will conquer whatever food i can find.

this is really bad but i couldnt control.

like here my stomach is already so full but i still stuff food in and then result to gastric later.

this is really like im torturing myself physically, emotionally and mentally.

not that i dun want but i couldnt stop.

and i will hate myself when i stuff down those extra food.

but thankfully i think that bulimia and anorexia are disgusting and so i wont resort to them.

however it is really irritating and fustrating that for all the effort that you put in losing weigh makes no difference by the end of the day.

and after years of losing and gaining weigh, i realize something about myself : i tend to lose weigh when i dun really have the intention to do so. (this is ultra true cos i wont always keep track of what i put into my mouth)

secondly, i have no appetite under extreme stress condition. though food is a coping mechanism for me, i realize i couldnt stomach anything under intense pressure. and i really managed to lose weigh while working in UOB previously. so stress that i even afraid to go to the restroom.

that was a nightmare job. luckily it didnt last long too. haha!

he is love.

2010-07-11T06:08:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!!!!!

(this is for the interest of myself only)

wang lee hom is freaking HOT please!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like seriously!

he makes me fall in love la!! haha!

though i always been his fan of singing, i never like him so much before!

he is really unique in his own way. me like :)

the puppet is so cute!!!!!

this mv is 11 years ago. omg. i only jus 8 yrs old. HE DIDNT CHANGE AT ALL PLEASE!

MUS LISTEN TO THIS VERSION! way much better than cd!

i can die smiling to myself in front of his mv.

HHHAAHA

dead

2010-07-10T22:20:00.001-07:00

hehhee
i wanna to blog so many things out of the sudden.
and i feel my blog is simply too dead.
gg to change my skin!

:D

workic term paper

2010-07-06T07:02:00.000-07:00

hi blog, it seems that i have been neglecting you lately.

at this point, i should have apologize but somehow i feel dumb if i do so. Oh well.

the agenda for me to be here today is just to rant my stress.

1 report, 1 term paper each hold 30% by this friday.

1 statistics test next wed and 1 report 2 days after that.

my mind is just these 4 things too. i think of them in every sec. worse than thinking of my boyfriend.

plus it add on a note of worry and apprehension.

now one of my window tab is typing of my term paper.

this module is screw like seriously cos firstly it is a "social worker" module.

the lecture slides are dry ttm and we dun have any revision for this module at all.

secondly, we dun have a standard format to guide us in writing.

judging from the numbers of people who went up to consult about the assignment, it is not difficult to understand how unclear our term paper is all about.

thirdly, it consists of 30%.

lastly, the textbook is totally information overload. need to study so many topics for just writing a paper.

and now, i have 400 words count. 1600 more.

2 more days before deadline.

DANG.

1002pm, 6/7/ 2010, tues

lubby

2010-06-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

boy: are you always wearing like this? with sweat pants to everywhere?
girl: cos changing my clothes take too much time. i wanna to make the most out of the little time we have together.
boy. ....

1258am, monday

bad mood

2010-06-23T05:36:00.000-07:00

im a bad mood freak now.
so many things suddenly crushed onto me and really make me very angry.
im not shifting any blame but why cant they see that the problem is not me?
it is from some other people that think that only they are busy and not others.
im just a by product of their action.
i left with no other choice to do what i did because of some people.
but i suffer all the blame.
being inconsiderable is really ugly.
all boils down to that being a nice person is difficult and only a victim to being bullied.

$%*&(()&&$%@KGUJGIgI:GU&R&ER&OTPYOH
can you jus send me your parts?! i really need them!
can you jus put yourself in others' shoes?
can you see that it is only all about yourself and you from the beginning?
can you jus ask about what others want?
a huge lesson learnt today for me.
i have try my best to do everything for the benefit of everyone.
if you cannot understand it, so be it.

8:35pm, june 23 2010, wed

update myself

2010-06-15T10:09:00.000-07:00

im a busy beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

sometimes, i really think i ask for tons of work to do.

but frankly speaking, i like it.

though slacking or nua-ing at times feel good, i think it is jus not for me cos it makes me feel useless.

it is just dat sense of achievement that makes me feel good!

okay im a workaholic.

jus keeping an update for my not-holiday-de-holiday

tmr to fri - CELL GROUP CHALET

yes i havent pack my bag and im leaving at morning and now is in fact morning, 1am. HAHA

fri- visit to spastic children association of spore SCAS. wow...right after chalet, i need to go there. how great.

and it is at pasir ris! so do i go school after chalet den go back PR? or go PR directly? but they got briefing!

and rachel didnt reply me.

oh my oh my. then is my favourite saturday service!

did i mention that having service on sunday is not for me? and yes i feel totally weird last sun. HAHA

sun-mon Polystage F'Actor camp!

some drama cca which i was surprised dat i wanna join too. im not a drama mama or a drama queen. i jus love to do backstage stuff :)

tues: I&E meeting. sian. i think i go work on tues afternoon. my bank is running low cos i havent been working! BAD.

wed finally a day to do work! yes dun ask me out unless i ask you. HAH

thurs gg out with cheryl and liping! eileen and sq too!

fri. SCAS visit! arhh im gg to miss my grp meeting! then cell group

sat service! i scare i need to return school for I&E. yes wat the heck need to go school during holiday wkend?!

sun same. return school. last day of holiday

jus shoot me. i need to call upon Him more. :)

JESSIE

ps. i love to gmail people lately. ahaha!

14 june

2010-06-13T23:54:00.000-07:00

i wonder if anyone drop by here but oh well!
i skipped work today cos there is not even a tiny bit of motivation.
i literally dragged till like 1 plus den decide not to go at all.
(even if im jus gg to work till 6pm)
i jus wanna stay homeeeeeee

today's weather makes me think a LOT.
too much i think.
that i couldnt focus on my assignments.
yes im not gg to slack my day away if not i will kill myself at the end of the day and try to tick my clock to hyothesis myself dat i have "gained" back my time!
ahh...

i have been paying more attention to pretty people lately.

i wanna make this clear that i have no prob in my sexual orientation but just that when someone you know just turn into a swan suddenly. okay not really that suddenly but they CHANGED 360 deg la!

i jus wonder when will be my day too. who don't, seriously?

sometimes, i wonder if i live too much in past. it's time to move on with life isnt it?

GOD! heal my faceeeee

when people are on their way to lose weight, they will keep silent about it.

but im gg to announce that im LOSING WEIGHT.

cos it is a NEED not a want.

first, i have gained SO MUCH WEIGHT after secondary school

secondly, i really wanna to shed those fats that have been around me for years

had enough!

thirdly, i need to improve my complexion. so i need to eat TONS of fruits and flood myself with H2O.

fourth, i need to train my stamina cos of my dream career next time. HAHA

fifth, i wanna fit in those pretty dresses and clothes. im vain. HAHA!

HOWEVER....

i have no concrete idea on how should i diet! HOW?!

help me!

oya, i cannot survive without tasty food like nuggets, fish, choco spread etc. ya this kind of crap.

so i will jus reduce but not stop eating.

and im gg to stuff myself with apples, oranges, bananas, papaya, mango & yoghurt!

btw is YAMI YOGHURT! not other yoghurt cos i prefer frozen than fresh. :x

for the sake of my face, i will preserve! HAHA!

so dun tell me to drink more water, eat more fruits nor reduce deep fried food intake to improve complexion cos im doing them now!

lastly is sleep. i love to sleep so shouldnt be any problem if i have no assignment. HAHA

friends? i dunno.

:(

2010-06-10T11:51:00.000-07:00

this is a bad feeling.

i dislike this too.

but i couldnt help it to feel such way.

sometimes i really wonder how people can do SO MANY things within 24 hours?

did they stop the time?

it really worry me that i have accomplish so little.

i noe what i want for my future and actually i no ned those to get me thr.

but it really worry when others have and you dont.

i need to have more self-confidence.

got so easy jiu hao lo.

2:50am, friday, 11 june

29 may

2010-05-29T08:35:00.000-07:00

ASIA CONFERENCE HAS BEEN AWESOME!

so HAPPENING!

seriously!

im not gg to have longggg post about AC cos it is unnecessary.

only 1 thing is important: His anointing.

the truth is He always here for us but are we seeking enough?

i must really say that His presence is so strong as compared to normal service.

i have also learnt a lot of things from AC.

like how a rubber band can "destroy" a woman.

alamak! this was so funny! ask me if wanna noe!

though AC is taxing my physical body, i know that it has strengthen my spirit.

now i understand why people are susceptible to get attached when your peers are not single. or you will tend to get ur friends attached too when you are attached...

ah gong said this ar! not me! HAH!

yes! finally we have an ah ma already!

congrats to KENRUS & GRACE!!

P.S they just got attached, not married.

but they will one day! hopefully! :))

HAHA!

i realize there are quite a number of eyecandies in church! HAH!

and there are 3 people i knew that from my church too!!

HALLEJAH! :DDD

tmr will be de last day of AC.

mus buck up for brendan cos grace and he will be performing!!

HAPPY HAPPY!

jus enjoy yourselves and CHILL!

:DDD

GANBATTEE!!

1133pm, may 29, sat

thank You

2010-05-25T09:52:00.000-07:00

i have so many things to thank Him.

especially today. :)

i was totally elated for today presentation cos it is simply God's grace.

i have used a quote by Geert Hofstede on explaning culture.

seriously, who is this guy man?

and i really feel dat i have dug my own grave for using his quote cos our lecturer keeps emphazing to use someone who is famous and widely known.

okay im so gg to shot down by her.

secondly, i was the controling the slides today.

worse. i typically jus anyhow click and obviously i jus go with what was presenting up there.

yes. 2nd gun shot to me.

and last fatal shot was im not prepared at all. a lot of fillers. hmm?? errmm?? all these kind of craps.

bang! im so dead.

im gg to drag my group down down down.

but to my surprise, she know who that guy is!

she said is a Greek (or german) prophet. oh.

i was spared.

she didnt talk about my clicking of the slides.

spared again.

lastly, she praised for my content. wow! this is really a bonus.

yes, im happy :DDDD

then i had my favourite HL chocolate milk for lunch!

today (or ytd) is my last day for fasting.

i really experience a lot of things during this fasting.

i have seen the ugliest of temptations and desires which i have to rely on my faith to cling on Him.

it is not easy but i believe everyone can do it!

i didnt manage to do my best to run the whole race but i know that You have seen my effort.

and that is enough.

hmm.. btw fasting hasnt make me any slimmer cos i eat a lot during night time. HAHA

i guess if dun have fasting, i will gain more weight.

TOMORROW (OR TODAY) IS ASIA CONFERENCE!

like long awaiting for it man!

though i have to miss morning sessions, at least many lectures are cancelled and i can attend the electives!

HEES!

and and and

i wanna thank God and that person too cos i almost lose Man ytd!

this totally give me a shock cos all of my work are in here and i love Man.

luckily someone kind-hearted passed to the librarian!

the librarian was also quite cute ar cos she asked me if there is anything there i can identify the laptop is mine.

nothing except saying it is fujitsu.

and, i can log in. i think this is darm hilarious cos like so obvious dat only i can log in.

HHAAH

i bet no one know the password anw.

and yes Man is back!

Yi Zhen said it was a stalker dat return my laptop cos he know my surname and english name.

but seriously if u know my name, u can call me and return to me right?

or u can return cos u saw me with it so you know is mine.

HAHA i duno his name as he didnt leave it behide but he was in blue tee ytd.

thank you anyway! :D

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though tmr class is statistic (very important class), i really feel like ponning.

firstly, i wan to go asia conference.

secondly, i tripped and fell down yesterday and so i have difficulty to walk cos with medication.

hmm...

how ar?

HAHA

----------------------------------------------------

sometimes, people dun really use their brain.
and should i say, 没有自知自明?
oh well.

i hardly can believe i can wake up tmr at 7am.

6 hours of sleep?

not enough for jessie.

okay bye

1251am, wed, 26 may 2010

CUTE TTM

2010-05-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

KAWAII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JUS WATCH (30 SECS ANW) :DDD

may 18 not 19 or 17

2010-05-17T22:23:00.000-07:00

today started with a bad mood.
worse still, there was no apologize at all.
i cannot understand why so people dun feel sorry for doing something wrong.
as in they dun feel bad at all.
it really came back to question if they have any self-awareness a not.
oh well.
still, God makes things goes well and appease my anger.
some people are meant to not click with you so dun force then.

im in NP attic now where i relax in a sofa seat and blogging while charging.
Man is really giving me heart attack recently cos the stupid battery become loose and so it will shut down suddenly if i didnt plug in!
haiz.
btw i gotta a new laptop case soon.
this one is so old (and dirty) HA!

actually im thinking wat shall i do now.
i wanna slack cos based on my schedule bk, i left with no other time than now.
so shld i watch sailormoon or Glee or jus...
i dunno.
HA!

God, only left 8 more days to asia conference.
so please make something happen that i can attend ALL electives, morning and night sermons and competitions can?
and and able to fulfill my pledge for building fund.
as Your words says build Your temple 1st and You will build ours.
let me continue to hold on to You.

okay i decided to do some serious stuff instead. BYE

P.S i wanna learn piano. :)

1:22pm, tuesday, may 18 2010

my favourite taiwanese artists

2010-05-14T21:30:00.000-07:00

rainie rainie, why are you so pretty?

she is not that kind of bimbo but with very cool personality too!
she simply rock!
love her hairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
centre-parting and long locks :DD

new song: black moon

i jus love this mv. HA!

罗志祥罗志祥

2010-05-14T21:24:00.000-07:00

i cannot help it but to watch the entire eps of show luo hong kong concert documentary!!!!!

it is a motivation and a reward after i slogged for my assignment ytd night

HE IS FREAKING HANDSOME!!!!!

i keep haiz-ing cos i couldnt be there!

and de feeling of being weak suddenly cos he electrified meeee!!

he is very confident, charismatic and humorous!

i like. very much.

HAHA!

罗志祥! 罗志祥! 罗志祥! 罗志祥!

ahhhhhhhh so shuai neeeeee..... <33333333

1226pm, sat, 15 may

jiayouuuu

2010-05-13T21:39:00.000-07:00

okay. im very stress now.
jus oovoo chat with chrysan about work. oh mya. im really slow cos it is my 1st time oovoo chat. HAHA
quite cool cos at least my hands are free!

suddenly i have so many things to do.
(add on to what i already have)
time is really running out.

1) need to find ways to raise $ for victims (enterprise)
2) need to record, keep, update etc for the $ cos im de treasurer
3) need to submit research proposal by this comin mon (statistics and research module)
4) need to submit essay nx week (working with community module)
5) need to do essay (health psy module)
6) need to plan someone's birthday
7) need to finish e-learning assignment by these 2 days

as u can see, they are all NEED to do.
and 80% of these are need to be done by this sunday and today is friday.
seriously i wanna complain.
but i question myself "am i only like that?"
since He has given me all these tasks means that i have the ability to overcome all right?
so fear of wat?
hence im jus gg to whine and get them over with.
as it should be. :)

GANBATTE!!!

12:39PM, friday

this week

2010-05-11T07:18:00.000-07:00

hi, im here to blog AGAIN!

seriously, i think im quite "old-school" cos i still using blogger.

HA! stylo still.

today is tuesday but i dun really feel like so cos this whole week is so flexibleeeee!

YA E-LEARNING!

so apart from 2 lessons (2hrs each only), proj meeting and assignments, i got nothing up!

HAHA

plus i skipped my drama cca today cos i dunn wana go alone.

and I NEED TO DO WORK !

tmr im gg to go out with liping and it has been 3 months that we went out tgh. can u believe?

so yup we gg to doll ourselves up tmr. HAHA

i will be happy if someone says i look like a doll.

HAHAH

wat shld i wear tmr? i need to buy new clothes.

today is day 2.

14 more days! :)

Let Your will be done in my life.

though i know that what i do now may only serve this purpose, i noe that You will give me more than I ask.

because this is You.

This is our God.

Thank You.

then, thursday im having BS with da jie! woo! it really feels so long that i have BS!

YAYA!

friday will be cell group day!

saturday will be church day! and celebration!

sunday will be assignment day (thank you jessie for bringing it up -.-''')

be happy everyone!

it is alr past 10pm!

i need my quiet time and sleep early for jogging! BYEBYE BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE

smiling!

2010-05-09T05:04:00.000-07:00

i slack a lot today.
today weather is so nice to sleep in.
HAHA
i dun think i told many this but im having E-learning next week.
but then, dun ask me out cos im so gg to revise my work this week and need to finish my essays!!
ARGH!

oh boy oh boy! ASIA CONFERENCE is coming! oh mya!
i was so excited when Pst kong announced the events ytd!
hees!
yup my "low" period has over and now is the HIGH period.
i guess only dorcas and i understand what am i saying here. :)
dun think so much and just pray.
im thinking to extend my fasting.
okay i will consult Him later.
HAHA
i pray that my pay will be here before AC so can buy new clothes!
HAHA
okay i will go for blood donation soon again but dunno when.
but surely wont be this or next week. HA!

mood swing is taking me over that i dun really feel like talking to someone recently.
i need to set boundaries now.

i NEED to lose weight. not want but need.
and i will lose and not may lose.
confessssssssssssss :DD

"Do not upset that God did not give you something that others have because He has given you what are enough for you to make you great. You do not need other things else cos He has made all sufficient for you."

(my blog isnt that dead but cos i cannot change my colour and font the way i want!!!!! :(

cold

2010-05-04T10:54:00.000-07:00

i realize i hate how fb organise the "what on your mind now?" column cos only one will be show beside your name! so those past ones will be buried in somewhere of your wall. and i dun like.

so i wanna drop it here. HAHAH

"The distance between us has been so far apart that I could not even hear your heartbeat anymore even if the whole world has gone silent.

Your presence has no longer something that left me breathless but just an awkward character that is even worse than a total stranger.

What shall I do?

I feel like a lost child in a shopping centre and waiting for someone familar to pick me up.

But fear starts to conquer me when I cannot be sure if there is anyone coming.

Please bring me back.

I'm scare.

I cannot cry because it is the strong front that I put on stop me from breaking into a thousand pieces.

I can only hold my tears back cos they are the evidence of being weak.

So, I am only left with myself eventually."

im not suffer from heartbreak or wat so ever but just have this inspiration to write these after listening to some songs. HAHA! comments are welcome! :)

1:53am, May 5 2010, Wednesday

5 flowers-month

2010-05-04T10:23:00.000-07:00

HALO!

time check, now is 1258am.
wow!
i want to sleep.
i decided that sleeping is more important than eating. so sleep more. ^^
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i just watched 2 short eps of sailormoon. frankly speaking, their animation were so old-school! like seriously! and i realized wat i wanna watch is the part where sailormoon's true identity would be revealed.

it has indeed a regret that i lost a whole thick animated book of sailormoon when i was very young.

i only have the cover page now.

believe me, the story was freaking nice in that book.

i wanna watch the movie series.

i dunno wat really caught my attention to watch that rather than other girls' shows like Wings club etc.

maybe that was part of my childhood?

i could still rmb sailormoon was broadcast on those early morning like 6 plus and i would wake up and watch. HA!

oh ya! sailormoon was 1st broadcast on sep 11, 1995 (which i was only 4 yrs old!)

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someone asked me recently if i have a boyfriend now.

(not lee min ho etc)

and wat went on my mind 1st was "im single but unavailable".

at this moment, i dun have time as there are so much for me to do.

i wanna try as many stuffs as possible when im still young.

secondly, i feel that i have seen quite a number of things recently.

i dunno if i have interpreted correctly but everything has been so "transparent".

thirdly, i cnt promise anything.

no point having a relationship that only last a few days or weeks.

when someone send me msg and ask if i can intro myself or wat.

the 1st thought in me was why should I?

not that im attitude or pricing myself at a high position.

but it is YOU who wants to know me not the other way round.

so why should i give details of myself?

plus no point since im not ready for any relationship anw.

so i just ignore or delete.

I may not know what i really wants or seeks for but when the time comes, I will know.

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monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday, SATURDAY, sunday
i always anticipate for fri - sun only.
so 2 more days TO FRIDAY!!
:)))

temper

2010-04-30T07:54:00.000-07:00

sometimes, some people can be annoying too.
they insist and demand from you even when they are in no position to do so.
hey, putting yourselves in others' shoes will help.

i know you are joking (even if you are not, i treat as if you are), i couldnt treat your remarks as a harmful joke.
because they hurt.

im talking about my friends, and myself.
yes, you, friend.
if i dun care, i wont even bother to feel such way.
u wont really care about wat strangers say because they are nothing to you.
but to those who I care, even the smallest thing of them matter.
i admit i am short-tempered but not bad-tempered.
i get angry fast but not long.
i will only get upset for long.
it is time for reflect isnt it?

just be my BF - best friend k?

1034am, friday, 30 april 2010

sad yet happy

2010-04-25T06:35:00.000-07:00

HELO.
frankly speaking, 1st week of school wasnt that pleasant. but is over! Lord, makes it better please!!! :))

i have entered the contest cos i saw something great will happen. Jessie! call upon your faith! I make the decision and so have to be responsible for it! go and practice! Let me be anointed!

sometimes, it really intrigue me how you know though i didnt tell you. (or did i? haha)
shall i give you a ??????
i guess still a bit more?
HAHA

im sad today but sumhow my mood changed. tmr will be a new week so smile your troubles away!!!!!!!
ganbatte!!!!
btw, wang lee hom is very cute!!!!!
:)))

25 april 2010, sunday, 9:34am

the 3 words

2010-04-18T20:44:00.000-07:00

There are many things that came across my mind lately.

Worries, fears, uncertainty etc.

I'm not saying that I'm unhappy but it is just the kind of feeling that something is pulling me back.

I admit that I hasnt been focusing on Him lately.

But whenever I am praying, this 3 words pop on my mind.

The voice that I heard called upon me to trust Him wholeheartedly.

Not the widely known 3 words; I love you.

But, is "Rely on me".

Yes, sometimes it is difficult to stay on the right track especially when life seems to be so upsetting.

It seems that it won't get any better based on the given circumstances and situations we are in.

We doubt, fail and get disappointed.

But somehow, things can get better!

That is when we choose not to lose hope and totally dependent on Him.

We exchange our burdens with His comforts.

Common questions such as "Where is He?" or "Has He abandon me?" are often asked.

But have we ask ourselves if we have seek Him enough?

Have we spend sufficient time with Him?

Have we really love Him with all our hearts?

He, is not for us to see but to feel.

When He comes to you, you will know He is here not by His appearance but by His presence.

I am addicted to the peace He gives me.

I am not perfect but You accepted me.

I am thankful for who You made me.

May God bless.

:)

1143am, April 19 2010, monday : Prayer meeting day 1!

random

2010-04-13T10:02:00.000-07:00

HALO!
here i am again! HAHA
just some random thoughts again.

1) i cannot do without blogging.
some people may find blogging is a chore cos have to sit down and recap what happened and type it out.
but i find blogging helps to organize thoughts and sometimes through blogging, i come out with solution or even alternatives to my problem.
for some faithful readers out there (i wonder if any. HAHA) i like to write abstract things that is evolved from some particular feelings. i know quite boring but i just like to write about these things. HAHHA

2) birthday
cos i am a birthday coordinator for my CG so i need to think about bday celebrations. and of cos i will think of mine too. HAHAHAH
im not asking for these but just think these things are so pretty.
an open field where countless of tiny light bulb pieces fall down like brightly stars from the sky. (some people will understand wat i mean)
then there will be balloons! not those bday balloons but just solid color helium balloons! WOO!!
so many that they seems to consume the entire celling!
though i have tons of bears at home, i just want another one this year. HA!
(yup those bears in the MV!!!)

i mus b crazy to thought of my bday celebrations now. oh well! can use for members' bday! HAHHAA

3) i wanna go KBOX really soon.
so im gg to write down songs dat i wanna sing when im free.
HAHA

4) i feel rather apprehensive to return school nx wk. but i cnt wait to end work. HAHA

5) im gg to change my dressing style, somehow. HAHAH
oh dear!! i cnt decide if i should buy online or store boots!!! HOW?!
online boots dun have de colour i want but it is so CHEAP!!!!!!!!
store boots is darm cool but i scare i only wear it occasionally n it is very EX.
HAIZ.
stay cool-headed and decide.

6) im trying to wait for my pay, patiently.

7) GOOD NIGHT, FOLKS! :)

a familar stranger

2010-04-04T22:55:00.000-07:00

balloons are one of the lovely things in life.

they may seems to be extravagent and useless

but i will really be happy if i receive them.

Am I your most familar stranger?
Have you ever wonder that there is someone in another side of the world that you have forgotten?
What are the person doing when you are happy, sad or excited?
Will both of you be doing the same thing but at different places?

Most of the time, we are simply knowing people.
We know them where they come from, how they look like, their prime preferences etc.
But seldom do we really understand them.
Yes, it is a chore. It is not a easy job.
But if we only know people within skin surface, how depressing life will be.
That is also the time where smile is moulded and laughter is no longer a song of joy.
Will happy remain as an expression of joy or to disguise the uncontrollable sorrow ?

I do not want to laugh or smile because I am disgusing my unhappiness.
I am happy cos i see people that I have positive emotions on.
I am happy cos I have eaten my favourite/ good food.
I am happy cos things have been going smoothly.
I am happy cos it is a gurantee that I will get my Dr Martens boots! (this is random but i will fainted with happiness if i really can get it and even better at much lower price!)
Lastly, I know i will be happy cos You are with me. :)

Don't run... deny... or escape.
Try to figure yourself out by yourself. (<--- there is no typo here if u r wondering)
Don't be a stranger to anyone especially yourself.
Never label yourself as the most familar stranger to you.

God bless. :)

1:39pm. Monday. 5 April 2010
yes. this entry is typed while i am working. HAHAH!!!

happy

2010-03-29T22:52:00.000-07:00

okay random incidents are up now!

on last week OPM, i was sleeping in the bus that someone came to wake me up when reaches the interchange. okay this is embarrassing i know. but i think it is more hilarious bcos the 1st thought that came to my mind is " where is wanfong?!"

yup i thought she would wake me up before she alighted.

HAHAH! guess wat ? she didnt.

she thought im alighting at hub that's why.

actually wat came up my mind firstly, wat happen to wanfong?! is she being kidnapped or wat?

and then her hp low batt. wow! totally an ideal target for kidnapping lo!

HAHA

i just think this whole incident was totally hilarious! HA!

and to add on, i complained on service to the whole world and i quite worry that if im blaming her or not.

oh dear!

HA!

wanfong, dun cry ar! :D

secondly, after service on last sat, i met up with my family to have dinner together.

and on the way home, i did something to show my mum.

"mama...i show u something "

then i went to rub the bottom of a girl's hair with my thumb and shi chi.

seriously, a person will not feel it if her hair is really long and u just do it softly.

and yup! she didnt realized at all!

so kinda shocked my mama.

and then i did it the 2nd time.

but backfire.

my "target" sat up and lean towards her bf.OPPS!

i kinda worry that her bf will get up and box me actually.

HAHAHA!

anw i realize it has been long that i chatted with mum. :)

thirdly, which is just ytd.

i mistook it was a phone call when my hp rang bcos of alarm.

can u believe i picked up de phone and sae "hello"

stupid la!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

lastly, wanfong asked me something which woken me up during work ytd.

i really tried my BEST not to laugh out loud. HAHAH

the above incident may look dumb but these small matters really spice my life.

dumb or hilarious, depend on how u look at it.

attitude determine your outlook.

and to me, they are small things that made my day :)

30 mar 2010, 1:52pm, tuesday

my God

2010-03-28T06:28:00.000-07:00

hi, im here again.

actually i wanna share some funny incidents lately in my life but i think leave it 1st. i got more important thing to share.

how great is our God? i will say His love stretches through all dimensions that no man can never measure.
we may not be able to fully fathom why He did all these for us but one thing that we could comprehend for sure is He loves us,
that is His greatness. Previously, i would ask myself, "where is He?". though we may feel His absence sometimes but He is always with us. He didnt leave us at any point of time but watches us quietly that we may walk according to His plan. Just keep holding on.

For instance, i really thought i will be struck with no way out due to some circumstances in coming week(s)
but my God came to provide all my needs.
and made my days that seems so enjoyable that i never thought it would be so.
And this is our God.
It is time to open your eyes and heart for Him as He is always there waiting for u to open up to Him.
Do not be afraid as He will protect and shield you from all harms.
And this is our God who love us so much that He called us as His children.
Come and experience Him now.

I pray all these in Your mighty name. Amen.

mar 28 2010, 9:28pm, sunday

picss

2010-03-23T07:58:00.000-07:00

haha!
LEE HONG KI (or GI)!
so cute!
wanna see more of these pics? VISIT MY TUMBLR NOW!

http://jessiechong.tumblr.com/

(suddenly i wonder if i live more in de virtual world as i have Tumblr, blogger, facebook, twitter, tagged, friendster,livejournal, onsugar, hotmail, gmail a/c) HAHAHA!

though hongki is such a cutie pie, i wont choose him as my boyfriend cos surely no sense of security de!
HHAA

1057pm, mar 23 2010, tues

2010-03-21T05:04:00.000-07:00

i dun really have any thing much to blog actually.
just to keep people or maybe myself updated.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EILEEN!
hope u will like my presents! mus use kkk! HA!

people have you guys watch "You are beautiful" ????
gosh this show is so tempting that i catch 8 eps on the 1st day i watched it.
HAHA
however with work etc, i could only watch after i reach home so complete it within a week! YAY!

suddenly i feel like throwing all of my clothes away.
just dun really like them anymore.
need more $ to buy new ones!

i realized not because i dun wan but im afraid.
so in order to protect it, i rather i never touch it before.
His love is enough.
sometimes, submerging in love story from drama serials is easier to get off than real ones.

seriously, i lose interest on blogging already.
maybe, for the time being only.
i don't know

You are beautiful

2010-03-14T23:34:00.000-07:00

im catching You are Beautiful now.
it is a nice show but there are some parts that are rather illogical.
oh well! if show reflect true reality, what is the point of watching drama?
there is this actor called Lee Hong Ki who you will be "electrified" when you see his smile!
虎牙 is so cute! HAHAHA
the main main lead called Hyung nim in the show is so mean!
i cnt imagine a guy in the real world! he is like a mini-version of Goo jyo pyo! HAHAH
but he is also the guy that never fails to help the female lead.
and then got another guy called kang shin woo in the show that acted like the guardian angel of the femail lead (okay typical drama plot) but who don't want such person in our life?
HAHA
he is indeed the gentle guardian angel that accompany the female lead quietly at the back telling her how to spend her time such as where to eat, enjoy and shop. better still, he paid secretly for her and collaborated with the staffs that things are on sale or discounts dat y they are so cheap.
gosh!

so yup! go watch it k! HAHAH! :D
back to the show!

2:34pm, mar 15, mon

feel

2010-03-13T18:51:00.000-08:00

HALO world!
life has been good lately thanks to Him!
im so relieved that i met with Da jie on last tuesday cos she opened windows to more insights in life etc.
woo!
then i love the fellowship on last thursday in MINDS cafe though it was a little ex! >.<
next, usual friday cell group following up!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
saturday service!
that that "wee-ling" (feeling; geraldine will understand) was back! cnt wait for next service!
oh ya! ytd brendan was singing a song and asked if i rmb. i could only rmb when he sang the chorus part.
and he reallly hope that service will sing that song and guess wat?!
the 1st song we sang was that ! HAHAHAAHAH
so concidence!
HAHA

then tmr will be youth meeting with pastor kong at expo! WOO!
i wonder wat his message will be....
*awaiting awaiting! HAHAH :)
nx wed will be overnight prayer meeting!!! i wonder if i should go/ stay ? HAIZ

1048am, mar 14, sun

2010-03-10T05:39:00.000-08:00

ooo finally a new skin!
somehow i feel my blog is "cleaner" now. HA!

i dun really feel to blog lately. OOPS!

help me findddddd

2010-03-01T06:22:00.000-08:00

Hi all! im looking for this beautiful bootssssssssssssssssssssss

yes this is the one that im searching, talking and thinking all along!

so please help me take a look or inform me if u happen to find them k?

TYVM!!!!

anw at affordable price too ya! HAHHAHAHAHAH!! =)

red or white?

hmm.... @.@

1 march 2010, 1021pm, monday

pictures with liping

2010-02-28T04:04:00.000-08:00

as promised, here are the photos! AHAHAH

my favourite picture! :)

HAHA funny shot!

okay the below are using effectttsss!!

black and white!

negative! wat pose are we at?

okay the last but the least!

woo! artistic picture! HAHAHAHA

8:04pm, 28 feb 2010, sun

friday = good day

2010-02-26T19:21:00.000-08:00

ytd was a good (and yet busy) day!

God is faithful.

im blessed.

i attended ytd morning prayer and (woo!) it never fails to make it feel why is it so short?!

HAHAHA!!!

ytd Pastor Ming came and he said something that shocked me.

"today, do we come here (PM) just for a prayer request or we come to seek for Him?"

indeed, we may really came with a prayer request but if we seek in 1st, all will be given.

wat an enlightement!

then after so, i went out with lipingggggggggggggggggggggggggg

HAHA!

i really wanna buy my boots and jacket!

liping finally worn her yellow skirt! you really look good in it and so dun worry! HAHA

i think the most exciting in our date was eating in KFC!

i bet you remember right!

313 KFC is the best KFC lo. i wonder how the standard of KFC has risen? nvm a good thing anyway.

after eating, we dun even wanna to leave....

our stomachs were so satisfied! we should really call liping the miss mash-potato.

or maybe we just get her a tub of mash potato as bday present? GOOD right? HAHA

we took lots of nice pictures but let me upload later ok? HA!

nice thing should worth waiting right!

i realized that God has led me what to speak; to spread love to my loved ones.

cell group at 7pm!

though the starting was weak, the presence was strong in the end. HA!

finally i shared my testimony.

i really feel that God has great plan for me.

as i say before, there are sooooooo many things for me to do!

Thank God for all those ideas and inspiration.

let's get things started!

finally i have decided to serve in which ministry!

i really feel so good that i told Dorcas wat on my mind recently.

how great!

HA!

okay today is saturday so get prepare for service!
HA!!!
cyaaaaa

feb 27, 2010, 1118am, saturday

please! just watch the from 1:26 to 2:00!! you will not regret! :D

2010-02-24T03:21:00.000-08:00

i won't say much cos He is watching.
my advice to you is next time when you want to comment something, please check that if you are fulfilling it 1st.
you want others to be nice when you are not?
a reciprocal question, if you understand.

you think you are .... but sorry, i don't think so.

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this saturday service will be rather disappointing as not all will be coming and i doubt there will be any fellowship too. how depressing. :(

1 more day to STATS

2010-02-23T05:12:00.000-08:00

i have so many things to do in mind now!!!
but then, human is really such an ironic person cos there is always so many things when you are busy.

and when you are free, you seldom do things that you intended initially.

haix.

HAHA

okay so basically i have lot of things to do in mind now.
this and that.

time is never seems to be enough.

HA!

but i dun feel like disclosing openly yet.

time is not right.

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

think i need to date Mr. Time. HAHA!. lame.

1 more day to STATS paper!

BABY never fails to cheer me. so yup! so cutttteeee :)

feb 23 2010, tuesday, 9:11pm

pm

2010-02-22T03:30:00.000-08:00

woowoo!!

today morning prayer was awesome!

initially i thought i couldnt concentrate cos i slept at 4am! AHAHAHA!!

but then, Praise the Lord!

im so focus on morning prayer that i rally think y it ends so fast?!

ahhhh!!! i wanna go again!

p.s i prefer gg jw for pm! HAHAHA

im waiting for friday and saturday to come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will be free by thennnnnnnnnnnn HAHAHAHA

you are nice but shouldnt be me.

"because i have focus on you, i pray that you will be there for me, like always."

feb 27 2010, mon, 7:37pm

lalala

2010-02-19T00:19:00.000-08:00

hhaa!! there isnt any meaning for this post but jus that i dun wan my face to be appear whenever i clicked to my blog.
like so weird.
HAHAH

for those who are slow, this is my 宝宝.
Adriyana! AHAHHA

she is my bro's daughter la!

okay then N161 has CNY gathering!

monopoly card game kept us crazy!

HAHA!!!

patrick made these : penguins.

no ned to think y dey are doing this. HAHAHAHAH

okay end.

woo CG steamboat later

btw, it will be my fifth steamboat after today de.

gosh!

and im sooooo looking 4ward to tmr service!!

nothing special

2010-02-14T03:22:00.000-08:00

im just too bored. HAHAHA

ha!

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2010-02-14T00:43:00.000-08:00

im distracted.
HAHAH!!!
(but who don't in this festive session?!)
im having LIFESPAN and STATS exams next week.
i wonder how am i gg to *()(*)$$@
HAHA

a not very saturday de saturday

2010-02-12T19:54:00.000-08:00

hmm....

now holiday is slightly here...
heehee!

AUTUMN'S CONCERTO is AWESOME!!

sometimes, the outside doesn't really matter because it is the inside that made up the outside.

some people are simply meant for each other.

there is no one else like that "he" or "she".

i feel that today is not a saturday.
because there is no church service today.
so weird.

im looking forward to day 3 to go Dorcas's house!

it is not that i dun wan to cook, im just afraid.

so what if i dun want to cook?

oh, just shut.

den day 4 to chrysan's house!

create more jokes k! HHAHHAA

day 5 for cell group steamboat!

yayyyyyy eat till i drop ar! AHAHA

hmm....friday may spend on cellgroup.

saturday service!

I MUS SAE THIS: YTD SERMON was WONDERFUL!

pastor kong was funny and lulu (miss translator) was cute too!

真不愧 is a translator!cool!

pastor kong's message rock too!! he shared about the attitude of sowing and the real expectation of reaping.

NICE!

awaiting next service!

okay today is chu xi so wish everyone has a nice reunion dinner k! :D

bye~~~

1152am, feb 13, saturday

i dun wan to go chinatown

2010-02-09T09:55:00.000-08:00

services in chinatown were like a child's play.
or even worse.
i have 3 incidents on how bad their services were.
however, come to think, they are not worthy of my time of explaining them either.
oh well.
at least, i have saved $ on purchasing from these 3 businesses.
HAHA!

funny observation in chinatown... at least something "good" happened
if you observe clearly, almost all of those Mu chi stall holders have a loud speaker to shout their sales.
so there was one dat sae..

stallholder: come come come! try all you can for our mu chi!
                 cheap cheap cheap!
                 boss is not in the store so feel free to try anything!
                lady boss is not here too as she went to buy vegetables!
                you will regret if you dun patronize us!

okay...they are using Persuasion technique. Foot-in-the door? HAHAH!!
( i realize im applying theories from my modules unknowingly recently)
anw my reaction after wat he sae was "buying vegetables at this hour?! "
excuse me it was 8 plus pm man!
and mayb de stall holder is de boss! HAHA

you guys can learn the earlier lines when you happen to sell mu chi one day. HAHA!
i wasnt persuaded so i didnt buy. HAHA
maybe another day.
so sad i didnt get more clothes. -.-'''

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i dun like じゃにせ. sowing discord man. wat the heck!

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my phone is spolit... yes... AGAIN!

i really NEED (and not want) to change phone.

feb 10, wed, 1:54am

signing

2010-02-04T07:55:00.000-08:00

the name of my lover. HAHAHAH!!! :)

credit to YI ZHEN!!!

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having S&W dance showcase tmr!! i wanna do it well!!

gosh same for CATS! got presentation. hope it goes smoothly.

p.s had dance for 4 hours today. goshhhhh!!! so tiring and hungry. HAHAAH
maybe u think few hours only ma but it really is an achievement for amateur dancer like me.

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mayb im too sensitive but sometimes, it is really difficult to even breathe.

ps exhaling heavily is woo! HAHAH! :)

feb 4, 1150pm, thurs

4th post today

2010-02-03T08:29:00.000-08:00

hi im here again.
i dunno if this post will be de last of today but hopefully it is if not i will keep spending a lot of time here.
i really love blogging man.

finally went shopping (a quick one at least) today!
wanna go with ger but her off is only on mon.
maybe nx mon ya! :)

didnt manage to get my beloved jacket.
feel very dejected plus was tired for walking around.
seriously im not born as a shopholic.
im tired easily. HAHAHHA!!!
but luckily i got myself a nail polish and a top at least.
i really gonna get a jacket asap!!

p.s this is my 4th post today.
please read de below 1.

feb 4 2010, 1227

thank you

2010-02-03T08:06:00.000-08:00

this never fails to leave my tears at the bay of my eyes

I wanna to give thanks to my Father who is all mighty and greater than anyone else.
For He has bless me today.
i was very worry for one of my paper today; Behaviour in Organisation.
firstly, i didnt manage to cover de entire book in details.
secondly, this is de first and last paper dat this module has test before.
so there is no prior reference to what kind of paper my lecturer is gg to release to us.
however He has done great things for me whereby i realized i have spent lesser time with my study as compared previously. sometimes i will wonder y i could managed to finish studying within a short period of time.

frankly speaking i have no confidence at all for this paper.
However, My Lord has showed mercy with me and i self-evaluated that i could actually pass while doing de paper! HAHAHA!
I pray that i could score above 80%.
i wanna A this sem.

someone has helped me in giving me advices and support and i really appreciate that.
" how could you expect yourself to win when you think that you will lose even when de battle hasnt started?"
this sentence really motivated me to be more self-confidence and attempted the qns at my very best.
thank you.

lastly, i just wanna thank God for being my savior.
not just in academic.
thank you.
Hallujah!

"I will show you what he is like who comes to me and hears my words and puts them into practice"

[Luke 6:47]

Feb 4, 1206am, thursday

complain 2

2010-02-03T07:38:00.000-08:00

im so gg to die on friday.

for thurs der are CATS discussion and then makeup class for hip hop in de afternoon.

then fri, i have to makeup for HIP hop again at 8am. den cats presentation preparation after 11am.

CATS class at 1pm.

hip hop dance presentation at 3pm - 5pm.

luckily im not gg for HI club closing ceremony if not i will just sleep there.
i dunno if i should go for CG.
frankly speaking, i dun wan to miss any CG cos it really make a different if u even miss one.
but i dun wan look exhausted as that is not giving my very best to praise and worship Him.
no point gg there and wishing CG will end asap and so i can go home and rest right!
plus i will stink as i will start dancing since morning!
and i only left with 4 more days (exclude today la) to my another paper.
sometimes i really cnt understand y lecturer likes to set paper on day dat is de worst in de week: monday.
in addition, she only told us what to study ytd which is 5 days b4 de paper.
plus, she didnt really hint us wat are coming out.
and she expect us to read de entire book by monday?
i bet she cnt too.
and since tmr and friday will be eaten up by CATS n S&W, i left with 2 days to study.
great.
i complain a lot today. pardon me.

feb 3 2010, 1135pm, wed

complain

2010-02-03T06:59:00.001-08:00

i wanna complain.

today i received a letter from NP regarding my absentees for s&w.
i was shocked.
yes, i did skipped but not playing truancy.
i missed cos of OPEN HOUSE and SYMPOSIUM for my course.
yes, need to do makeup class.
but then, my tutor sae he wil 'close one eye' for one of missing class.
so i should just makeup for one right?
yes i know i should but im intending to go this friday cos i JUST MISSED CLASS ON LAST FRIDAY.
and so fast, NP sent warning letter dat i need to makeup class for wat i missed last friday.

so i wanna to raise my grievances (exaggerated) cos my tutor DIDNT keep his promise and stupid NP is so gan chiong and chase after me for makeup which is even less than a week!
to add on, NP warned me to look for de IC by 3 days the date of de letter.
i dunno which date to follow cos i received the letter just today.
however, the front of de letter got a stamp said 1 feb.
and my tutor wrote de letter on 29 feb.
siao.

i really HATE NP admin stuff, ever since de start of my year one.

p.s. this is just a post for me to vent my anger.
p.s.s i still love HIP HIP!!!! bounce bounce!! :)

feb 3, 2010, 1056pm, wed

the mathematics of attraction..

2010-02-01T20:50:00.000-08:00

black spect + black hair + big eyes + cute smile = とでもがすきです

gosh! it sounds like Ger ????? ! nonononono not him. HAHHAHAHAHA

feb 2 1247pm, tuesday, during tutorial

wow! 1 feb lo!

2010-02-01T02:14:00.000-08:00

i watched 100% entertainment today and got inspired to write this.
quite cute actually!

someone: hey which girl do you think is pretty over there?

guy: hmm...hard to decide

someone: what do you think?

girl: none.

guy: really? none?

girl: then choose by yourself lo.

sometimes, jealousy is kinda sweet.
HAHA! :)

1 feb 2010, 6:12pm, monday

2010-01-30T21:02:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i dun really know what i wants.
save me.

the reason y we went toliet for so long

2010-01-30T20:50:00.000-08:00

these were taken during fellowship time!

errmm yup that explained y we went to de toliet for so long!

HAHAHA!!

i love this pic! :)

funny shot ya!!!

Jan 31, 1250pm, sunday

pictures

2010-01-30T20:00:00.000-08:00

these were pics of NP open house!

yes that's liping dancing! :)

i drew this!!!! :)

the popcorn clique!

these were taken on 2 days ago for IP symposium!

yes we were all in formal wear!

HAHA

OOPS i napped during de rehearsal. hees!

this was well- taken! ya!!! NICE! :)

yes we had food in our mouth while taking de pics! and people were horrified when they saw us taking this pic! HAHAHA

can u spot yi zhen?

finally IP is over.

a project that comprises of de application of all the modules.

it really feel like the birth of a child.

tiring yet happy.

before more of these projects come,

let's celebrate 1st!

CHEERS to everyone

31 Jan, 1236pm, sunday

memories

2010-01-27T10:01:00.000-08:00

"sometimes, what torture people in their deepest are memories.
i don't know if the past is clinging on me or I am the one that hold tight to it.
you may have forgotten but I have not."

lov

2010-01-26T08:20:00.000-08:00

可以带我去找他吗？

“如何让你遇见我

在这最美丽的时刻

为这我以在佛前求了五百年

求他让我们结一段煙缘

佛于是把我化作一棵树

长在你必经的路旁

阳光下慎重的开满了花

朵朵都是我前世的盼望

当你走进请你细听

那颤抖的叶是我等待的热情

而当你终于无视的走过

在你身后落了一地的

朋友啊那不是花瓣

是我调零的心”

[来自一位非常有名的作者]

多美的一篇短文啊！
有时候，我会想我会宁愿让爱伤得我遍体磷伤。
或者，选择一道墙来保护我脆落的心灵。
:)

Jan 27 2010, 1219am, wed

this week

2010-01-25T06:18:00.000-08:00

i think my course is the only course that declare no school for the whole of this week.
not because NP love us but bcos of this symposium thingy.
basically is showcasing our project that we have been slogging like crazy for this whole sem.
this is not a minor presentation as various organization will be invitied to attend de symposium.
i think my org wont be coming as de issue surrounding our org is too sensitive.
oh ya!
i think the IC of my org is from CHC too!!!!
i was totally shocked cos he was not very friendly upon our 1st arrival and we only saw him once.
so yup formal wear is really required for this.
yes we have presentation previously but most of the time we jus dressed casually smart.
hmm think will be another photo-loaded day!
so need to report to school tmr, thur, fri, sat and even sun!
so im not that free k!
haizzzzzzzzzzzz

26 FEB faster come!

JAN 25 2010, 1018pm, monday

shop

2010-01-24T21:47:00.000-08:00

wat's up on CNY shopping list???

- black heels!

- black jacket! yesssssssssss that kind of glossy or shiny one! **********

- dresses?
.......

oh mya! i only have all these in my mind now!

but then! all these are MUST BUY items!

so i will definitely buy them!

have been thinking of getting them for a long timeeeee!!

who's going with me to shop??? :)

this week is booked fully.
HAHAHAH!!
book me for next week ya!
=)
1:47 pm

stronger

2010-01-24T21:32:00.000-08:00

after fri Overnight Prayer Meeting and Saturday Service,

i could feel that He is drawing closer to me.

my faith towards Him has become stronger.

i praise and worship Him more violently now.

my tongue has changed and i like it.

Now, i want to do certain things differently.

though God has not really talk to me face-to-face, he inspired me in some way indirectly.

I know that He wants to tell me something but i need to seek more for that before i receive it.

let's me chew and digest His words more.

change from inside out.

=)

Jan 25 2010, 1:30pm, monday

2010-01-21T00:37:00.001-08:00

some people are just tabulay tahan.

21 jan, 4:37pm

new acc

2010-01-21T00:16:00.000-08:00

woooo!!!
i have created a gmail and a tumblr acc today!
i wont disclose the add yet cos i haven really used them yet.
HA!

i found this from tumblr!!!!!
darm cutee!!!
i love it! <3333333333333333

21 Jan 2010, 4:16pm, thurs

craving

2010-01-20T18:26:00.000-08:00

credit to: http://deliciousbaking.blogspot.com/2008/09/mfm-19-strawberry-pudding.html

i wanna to eat something soft, sweet and starchy now.

pudding is the answer!

ha!

uncomfortable days of the month.

no appetite except for snacks. FAT!

watever. HAHA

Jan 21 2010, 1025am, thurs, during LIFSPAN TUTORIAL

ps im a good student.

decisions

2010-01-20T06:13:00.000-08:00

a lot of decisions to make

major and minor ones

hmm.

i decided to drop these else where instead.

HA!

y tmr is only thursday?!

FRIDAYYYYYYY!! :)

Jan 20, 2010, 1012pm, wed

monday, with a lot of expectation ahead

2010-01-18T06:43:00.000-08:00

こんばんわ！
im here to blog again!
gosh i have been thinking of blogging for the past few days man.
but then, im too busy to drop all of my 'happening' stuffs here and so i jus share a bit ya!

3rd service of the year (last sat la!) was great! terrific!

there was something that i have experienced that makes me feel that i could feel His presence again.

what a wonderful feeling!

geraldine knows what im talking about. =)

Pastor kong has returned to preach and as always, his sermons have never fail anyone.

he has shared lots of things with us and that made me feel that im really part of something in his life that he shared with us.

new building is finally up!

though the location couldnt disclosed, it will surely nearer than JW and EXPO .

finally the whole church can come together.

cannot wait for MARCH to come as he will disclose by then!

today
im having a presentation tmr which is a skit.
i hope i wont screw things up and i will prove of my own capability to the rest because of Him who strengthens me.
and, im having japanese writing test tmr. wat a great timing man cos i haven even started my revision.
with all those assignements due on mon, how am i gg to prepare for every tues jap quiz etc?
okay enough of complains. just a few more weeks to go anyway.
i went to chillllllllllllllllllll today!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY!

friday

HAPPENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha!

i will be having the schedule of a celebrity on this friday (which means im packed with stuffsssss!!!)

9- 11am HIPHOP DANCE PRACTISE

(wooooooo have i mentioned that there will be a mini competition! yayayayay 1st HIP HOP DANCE PERFORMANCE!)

11- 1pm CATS group discussion

1- 3pm CATS lesson

3 - 5pm HIP HOP DANCE CLASS

5 -6 plus? pm rush my way down for CELL GROUP

6plus - 8 pm CELL GROUP

8-9pm way to riverwalk for Overnight prayer meeting

9pm - 3am OVERNIGHT PRAYER MEETING

3- 4 am go to ah gong's house for stay over

4am onwards STAYOVER

????? am wake up and revise for JAP speaking test. (finally the test that kills)

3:30 - 6pm SERVICE

6-8pm FELLOWSHIP

8 or 9 pm HOME SWEET HOME (i miss my dad, mum, bed lalalalal)

FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY!!!!!!!! 4 MORE DAYS ! =)

bye world.
miss me.

Jan 18 2010, 1041pm, monday

new skin

2010-01-14T06:12:00.000-08:00

credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/28073931@N06/3129036690/
(so qiao!!! i got this couple bear too!!!! but then i found this pic online :) )

woowoo!

i have finally (like really finally) changed my blogskin!

actually i wanna change like before the new year step in but then, im miss-busy and also that i couldnt find the suitable skin!

so since today is kinda free, i went to search skins again!

haha! saw quite a number of nice ones but then i wanna a skin that is not that complicated and just a simple background will do. this is bcos i wanna my pics and post be the focus and not the skin.

so yup!

i found it!

it was rather weird for me to use a skin that display everything at a page as i always choose skins that can clicks!

oh well!
anyway this skin is so easy to use!!!!!!!! i add in the tagboard and profile settings by myself! woo!

haiz. the days ahead will be busy again! as usual.

however, there are things for me to look forward in order to spice up my life at least.

im thinking to change my email, hp, blog type (tumblr/ livejournal), diet, dressing etc.

wow!

a really brand new year!

HAHA

okay till next time!
24 more hours to ah gong's houseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :

sorry to my IP group that i screwed OB presentation today. haiz. think i will be marked down this time. :(

14 January 2010, 1012 PM, thursday

thank you

2010-01-12T05:54:00.000-08:00

i have been in my blues lately.
it's time to change.
the road for the change is hard but the success will be awesome!
in one of the sermon, there was a preach on that for us to change, we need to do something first before God can spur us on.
I believe this.

God has blessed me today in academic area.
though it is only 10%, God has pull me through and scored a grade that i never did in poly.
Thank you. :)

12 jan, 9:54pm, tuesday

accounts

2010-01-11T23:42:00.000-08:00

gosh. now then i realized im a user of many accounts and...
all the pw are abt the same!
haha!
and im gg to create more accounts.
yay!

-

2010-01-10T21:58:00.000-08:00

so much to blog.
my heart is heavy.
i want a holiday.

weird

2010-01-06T08:44:00.000-08:00

so weird.
i feel weird using back my old hp.
call me touch-screen retard. HAHA
oh well. this time i will treat it preciously till the new one comes. (another few more wkss!!)
i feel weird to not set my ringing tone to classic or worship/ praise songs.
so now "when u say nothing at all" and "in Your house" are my ring tones now.
i feel weird with my new hair.
i feel weird to lose temper now.
i feel weird not to excerise for so long!

hmm... but look like things are getting better!
Thanks to Him, who never fails me.
a new Jessie has emerged.
jiayou! :)

12:44am, 7 january 2010, thurs

cut

2010-01-06T07:05:00.000-08:00

this is jus part of wat i lost. HAHA

gosh.
i finally cut my hair.
human is really a contradicting creature as sometimes they want certain things so badly yet when they got it, they want something else.
i have been thinking to cut my hair since dec.
and after watching HI MY SWEETHEART, i wanna cut like show luo.
which i think i willl regret if i did.
then i wanna cut like rainie's hairstyle in de 太烦恼 mv.
so my decision is medium length, curl-in style.
however i dunno if that suit me so i dun really dare to tell my stylist when she asked me.
stupid lo.
but then i did after she washed my hair cos i wanna to tell her that! haha!!
cut-cut-cut
she cut the way i wanted in the middle of the cut.
i wanna to stop her but she sae too thick so continued.
(ya indeed too thick leh)
so cut-cut-cut again!
haha!
i dun rmb how many times that auntie sae my hair is so thick.
and believe me, abt half of my hair is gone cos i was startled when i looked at the floor.
oh my!
so now it is very thin and above shoulder length.
gosh i really think the thin-ness is so ah lian man.
i dun like.
but then on an overall look, i think it suit my personality.
HAHAHA
see? contradicting myself again. cos im a human.
till next time!

TY CHERYL FOR ACCOMPANYING MEEEEE! :D

11:03pm, January 6 2010, wed.

happy times

2010-01-04T21:56:00.000-08:00

Happyyyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Countdown has been a new and great experience.

but it will even be better if i didnt work dat day!

regretted! HAHAHA

oh welll.

still, we managed to celebrate! lots of pic and i realize....

CHERYL GOH! y didn u take many many pics with me?!

hhaa!

so most of the pics only got liping and me!

oh well. let's be de camwhore for that night ba!

HEESSSS!!

(liping's fav!)<33333 vodka
who's watch man?!

so cuttteeeee!!

i bet the owner is cute too! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :)

1& only pic with ryl!

XMAS CELEBRATION!!!!

haoteng!!!!angeline!!!

ah gong lay?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HERE HE IS!

he is ger and my ah gong!

dun bully him k jus bcos he is old!

ger and i will box u!

HAHAHAHA

he got BLACK HAIR AND BLACK SPECTSSSS!!!!

I WANT!

let's end with nice pictures.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

okay at least the background is nice!

i need a new hp asap!! i badly wanna take pics!

pls dun blame me if ur face is not here cos i "steal" from others! HAHAH

smile k!

till next time!

January 5, tuesday, 4:07pm.

--

2010-01-02T18:38:00.000-08:00

i listened to so many songs but none comfort me like how 匿名的好友 did.

last day of 2009 (midnight)

2009-12-30T08:46:00.000-08:00

im back!
trust me, it gg to be a shortttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt post. * wink

ytd work was the worst ever.
even though Sammie is not working
i was accused 3 times but i kept quiet till the end and then broke down.
i asked myself a lot of questions - why why why?
nurul and i then chatted on the way home.
i know what you means but it is rather difficult to believe as i cannot see it now.
still, thanks NURUL!

2 project discussion in a single day.
i slept my way in all my bus trips.
and i realized that somehow the journey has become so long!
HEES!

countdown with ryl and lp tmr!
gg to eat steamboat and watch fireworks together and tonning!!!
i really hope that i wont feel exhausted tmr man.
sick. i shouldnt agree to work tmr lunch.
haiz.
tmr work will be boringggggggggggggggggggg------------------------
seriously i wan to hunt for a new job now as nurul is stopping for her attachment too.
pray!
okay bye~
PS. see! this post is so short! gg to continue my New Year Resolution! haha!!
and i have 2 essays in my input and i wonder how on earth im gg to clear them by next monday.
great.

dec 31, 2009, 1245am

farewell

2009-12-28T05:52:00.000-08:00

Bye bye, a beautiful encounter.
end of story on 26.

dec 28 09, 9:48pm, monday

:(

2009-12-27T17:15:00.000-08:00

im left alone.
only with Him to share my tears.

dec 28 09, 9:15am, mon

xmas

2009-12-24T21:34:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!!!!!

had xmas service with new friends and the usual siao ones! HAHAHAH
thanks Hao Teng and Angeline for attending and really hope that they have enjoyed themselves.
and if i have been a bad host, please forgive me! :)
i pray that they can come more next time and accept Him as their saviour too.
Xmas drama was hilarious especially the part that imitated Henieken adv.
"AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "
hhaahah!
after that we fellowship!
i love it man!
jus eat and chat (crap)
Ah gong is still so adorable! HAHAHA! i kept pestering him for drawing the nicest card. hees!
even Da Jie think im so fan! :( HEES!
actually i want to stay behide longer but the lights at level 5 was swtched off early and the AMK kids need to go home too...so oh well!
i really like a big sis man. brought the younger ones to buy food and led the way home.
actually couldnt really handle it cos there were many to take care. i wonder if i will survive in Children's church or Nursery. HHAHAHA
oh well.

during the drama, i got so much things to share but then dun wannn to disturb my neighbours so hold everything back. GER mus sit beside me tmr k! let's get highttttt!!!
thanks to GER that i have a pair of beautiful eyes ytd :)
i noe you miss me and vice versa k! HAHA
i miss worship and praise songs!
i miss Pastor Kong preaching in a full session.
i miss sitting at the middle of the hall.
now then i realize i will be going church twice this week!
~~but then, wasted once.~~
~~you late or wat? haiz. oh well.~~

thanks to Him, i blessed with valuable gifts this XMAS.
thank to many! <3

gosh! i have received many XMAS "presents" frm school too.
essay. wa lao. i think after i graduate from Ngee Ann, i can published a book with my essays lo. so many!
e-learning work
IP. this is the killer for the whole semster
practise for sign language.
Jap!!!!!!!! work + speaking test + writing test
exams.
book your date with me in advance ba. :)

im sooooo gg to be late meeting ger.
OOPS!

smiling

2009-12-22T09:55:00.000-08:00

God has indeed didnt shortcharge me.
there are times where im at my lowest pitch due to something.
but there are also times where im at my highest peak bcos of something great happens.
however, with Him, i learned to believe that i will never at my lowest pitch cos something great is brewing and coming on my way.
I just have to wait.
i really need to repent on my thoughts. those doubts, weak faith etc.
God is here. Just close your eyes and feel His presence.
i wants to know Him all over again :)

dec 23, 1:53am, wed

yoyoyo

2009-12-20T08:35:00.000-08:00

NURUL'S bday surprise was a success!
there was actually a long planning behide it but oh well.
so basically, i tricked nurul to go walk walk with me after work today.
cos i need to wait for angeline to finish baking her cookies.
their cookies rocks!
sweetttttttttt! :)
thanks nurul for treating me today!
it willbe your turn tmr!
dessert!!!!
FAT TTM! oh well!
yup so i waited under her void deck while waiting angeline they all to arrive and went up to nurul's hse.
she was totally caught in surprise!
hey nurul mus continue to believe me k!
it was a surprise for you only ! dun take it to heart! haha!
so there are hand-made cookies, cadbury chocolate and hand-made cards with her bf in it.
though these presents may seems cheap,i believe each of us has put in our heart in making.
now nurul, u understand y i sleppt so late ytd. hahah!!!
HOPE YOU WILL REALLY LIKE ALL YOUR PRESENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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ANGELINE & NURUL ARE ATTENDING XMAS EVE CELEBRATION!!!
OH MYAAAAAAAAAAAAA
God has indeed answer my prayer :)
more more to come!!

funny conversation wit my supervisor.
suprvision (sammie) : i need people to work on 24/12 (XMAS eve)
me: cannot cos got service
sammie: -.-''' ok nurul, dun tell me u r a christian.
nurul: (showing a of-course-not face)
me: (thinking i must die die excuse nurul from work dat day and so i......)
sammie, no need to worry cos XMAS right, people dun come to Pepes as they eat turkey and not chicken.

outcome: BOTH OF US ARE EXCUSE! HOW GREAT!
hmmm...nurul hope you dun blame me for making you earning lesser. HAHAHA

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you make me think of you whenever i go.
nurul sae it is more than an infatuation now. :)

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I'M WAITINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

for mon : working full day. can really die. but im working with my beloved!!!!! oh mya! hope dat i wont be assign to the station beside Snow but instead station C to talk to nurul!! yup she is my beloved.

for tues: project discussion. oh dear i havent buy XMAS presents. mus buy during breaks tmr. and perhaps gg shopping with geraldine ng yue yi (she mus be thinking now y am i addressing her in her full name)

for wed: STAYING OVER AT AH GONG'S HOUSE! baking for xmas! really cnt wait for this

for thurs: XMAS CELEBRATION! finally it is here after looking forward for more than 1 month!
all my beloved friends will b der too! haha

for fri: XMAS day

for sat: year-end service

for sun: working full day with nurul again!!!

end of story!

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im wondering if one of my best friend has been avoiding me lately.
wat's really happen?
gg to call her up soon.
:)

20/12, 1235am, sun

candlelight service

2009-12-19T09:28:00.000-08:00

good morning, it's me again!
i shouldnt be here now but i have to blog about today or yesterday
okay basically it was our annual candlelight service!
hmm...it was cool but it didnt really boomz.
i experienced a number of feelings today.
1st. embarrasment and gulity

2nd. questioning and gulity

3rd. disappointment-----------happiness (sound like im suffering from bipolar man. HAHA)

4th. happiness TTM. =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

5th. expectation, disappointment, shocked, happy, shy, irritated

6th. enjoyable, warm, fun

7th. suspicious, worry, untrustable.

8th. confused, messed-up

9th. end of story.

i cnt believe i have experienced so many feelings within a day!
there are bad, there are good.
i wan the good things to stay longer.
i also think that the day ended well too.
goood!
think i will have a good dream tonight :)
dun think dat im lame or wat so ever cos wait till it is your turn.
Christmas is (indeed) the season for falling in love.

side notes.
ger sae something about someone that is nice to hear. :)
- ah gong sae this by himself 我的心不能再容纳第三个女人。
he sae this out of his own will k! hhaahha! darm hilarious!
- i realize someone's (another) eyes are actually rather pretty and nice sweater too!
- i wan to sit in the middle front seats at the 6th row.
- hor fun was delicious. 鼻涕食物. HAHHAA
- and thanks to those who help me all along. i wont forget these cos all are kept in my heart.
especially my girlfriend.
ya la is you la!

GOOD NIGHT!! :)

1.22am, 20/12, sun

colourful

2009-12-19T08:32:00.000-08:00

halo!!!!!

i believe no one will disagree that colours help to beautify the world right?

hence, i googled some pics that are delicious for your eyes!

and i love them too!

pact-man (i guess this is how it is spell?)

actually i came across these pics while searching some recipes.
haha!
so i decided to dl them and of cos credit to them for these beautiful pics!

:)

1231am, 20/12, sun

man!

2009-12-17T04:35:00.000-08:00

MAN was awesome today!
i didnt bring my adapter and the battery life was only 50% when i switched on for project.
and hence, it was about to die after i finished the keying of the data.
so i faster try to send before it dead on me.
but hor, those people la!
tell dem to accept quickly but wait wait wait.
and finally it dead.
MAN was unconscious.
see la!
-.-'''

no choice so i try my luck to revive him. and it works!
can u imagine how scare i was that he will went unconscious before i managed to send the data?
but MAN was so brave cos he press on till the last!!!!!!
and finally he can rest after i shut him down.
he is my hero!
i really thought that he will only last for few mins but never realized that he press more than that!
i love you!!!
and dat stupid disheng keep cursing my MAN to die before sending.
siao lo!
u come back school by yourself!
...

and actually it make no diff to send or not initially cos there is no discussion tmr either.
wat heck!

dec 17, 09, 8:34pm

events

2009-12-16T08:31:00.000-08:00

HALO PEEPS!
yes! holiday is finally here! but im arent slacking either!
as always, there are school project, meeting etc to do!
plus there is assignment and test after school reopen.
just wat's got wrong with NP huh?
oh well, guess that i ned to wait for that 7 wks break!

are you having holiday now too?
wanna join in the fun of drama, singing, performance etc?
there is it!
My church has organized a full blast of events to celebrate the festive as well to share His love!
hence, make a note for the following dates

Friday (18/12/09), 6:30- 9:30pm
wat sup?
A-Z zone mini XMAS party! 2 cell group celebrating together!
there will exchanging of gifts and wat's thrilling is that it will be randomly pick! hence, u wont know wat u will get!
where?
Riverwalk, clarke quay area

Saturday (19/12/09) 3:30- 6:30pm
wat sup?
can u imagine that thousands of candlight are shine before u?
how impressive and gorgeous are they?
no ned to imagine now cos there will be a CANDLELIGHT SERVICE on this day!

where?
City harvest church in Jurong west
i will fetch you from boon lay mrt. so no worry! just call or msg me ya!

Thursday, (24/12/09), 4:30pm- 7pm
wat sup?
what is the purpose of Christmas without joining the fun in a church on this special day?
hence, u have no reason to miss it cos it is once a year thing!
there will be awesome drama and songs performance.
trust me, chc performance has never fail to shock me even in normal service.
so invite all your loved ones and friends k?
and the theme this year is Christmas A Love Story.

where?
City harvest church in Jurong west

i will fetch you from boon lay mrt. so no worry! just call or msg me ya!

come come come! :)
dec 17, 1231am, thursday

time

2009-12-15T06:18:00.000-08:00

sometimes....some people just have too much time on their hands and so they waste it.
however, if they can use it for doing something more meaningful, perhaps more values can be added for their existence.
"achievement is not whether you can or not but rather are you willing to get it"

sometimes, im glad that God gives me such situation that im in now.
they may look pitiful, annoying etc but these make me grow up.
i believe i will be successful.

till next time!
:)

dec 15, 09, 1015pm

cold

2009-12-13T01:19:00.000-08:00

nobody is indispersable.
we all need to lead our own life with encountering with different people.
people stay, people leave.
that's life.
there is nothing as long-last friendship taking account when betrayal occurs.
there is nothing as i-love-you-forever if things start to get awful.
there is nothing as family love (especially now) as strong family values are not being established in the 1st place.
what's left in the Earth by then is simply God's love.
and for the rest will simply yourself.
life couldnt be more sad than now.
im unhappy and no one will really care, not that i wan them to anyway.

dec 13

2009-12-10T08:54:00.000-08:00

i didnt realize school is so hectic till we drafted out a timeplan for our upcoming projects, assignments, tests and exams.

can you believe that my schedule is packed till the end of Jan next year when 2010 hasnt even arrived yet!

that is how busy am i.

so try to make booking in advance for anything. TY!

I believe more days wil be fill up after 2010 has approached.

however, wat's important now is to enjoy myself before all these crashed onto me.

im not a no life person k!

11/12/09, 1254am, friday

beautiful sunday

2009-12-07T23:56:00.000-08:00

Sunday was terrific!
a family day indeed. :)
Adriyana is so cute! she is fairer than me! (of cos)
i also realized that taking care of a baby is so tough!
my bro and sis really impressed me!
and i felt sleepy when cooing her to sleep. funny!
my bro has changed to be a better man too (Y)

i pray that their love will continue to grow
best wishes <3

dec 8,2009, 3:55pm, tues

an unusal friday and a normal saturday

2009-12-07T19:25:00.000-08:00

I think I really need a new phone because I need to twit.

What a weird reason but it is true.

Okay, I am tired and having a flu right now.

Flu is a hell to Jessie Chong.

Like seriously.

Friday… was fair, I guess.

Hip Hop made me have breathing difficulty for the 1st time in class.

However, I felt so great because we managed to master continuous dance steps.

How about work? Another hell. Have been reprimanded by many but it was my fault too.

I realized I detest Snow. But I tried to be more magnanimous by tolerating her and even help her out.

I dunno if she saw it but I hope so.

Sheela was strict too. And I realized they (Sammie, Sheela and Snow) will not apologize to us, lower position staffs, if they are the one at fault. So they are not really gaining our respect but abusing their authority. Hence, I don’t think that Pepes can last that long if they keep replacing their staffs.

But I feel pity for Mr Chin for trusting me and Mrs Hau for caring me all along.

Finally, Overnight prayer!

I was really waiting for work to end and every second crawled by so slowly!

and because I need to talk to Sammie regarding my Sunday schedule, I waited for her to be available and I didn’t realized that it was already 1130pm! But also I mistook that ONP will end when I reached there and so I waited for CG to call me back. So I was totally freaked out when there was no 54 or 190 to Clarke quak mrt!

so I hopped on to 124 because I thought there will be at least some buses to Clarke Quay from Dobby Ghaut Mrt. And luckily I asked the bus driver uncle who was friendly too! He literally guided me through and it was actually such a short walking distance to the mrt where he alight me! Haha!!!!

Guess that I was totally exhausted by then so after praying for an hour or so, I closed my eyes and stood still unmoving. Oh Mya! I was actually at the stage of dozing off!

Not easy man! I had discussion early in the morning and I was 1st to reach.

Then I had my presentation cum class.

And Hip Hop class which left me breathless.

Follow up with working which was bad too.

And lastly rush down for overnight prayer.

For the next OPM, I doubt I’ m going to work before that because it is no point that I cannot devote myself 100% to it as I was tired.

Thus, I have been standing for over 6 hours and my calves muscles were killing me when praying. I couldn’t wait to sit down!

But the best thing in OPM was that it was my first time that I feel that praying is mega powerful!

It is like we were crying out to Him and because of our cries, He will comes and save us.

Terrific! HAHA!!

Me: Geraldine, Jie fu is also a cell group leader?

Geraldine: Ya. Then what you think? No no no. He is a pastor.

Me : HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!

Jie Fu (Jason aka James too): =.=’’’

Me: OOPSS!

Something like that la after OPM ended and we stayed back awhile and chatted.

Stayover at Ger’s house after that.

Thank you for your hospitality though your room is a little messy. 

I couldn’t take it eventually and slept at 6am.

Oh mya!

woke up around 11 plus and doing nothing much than waiting for Geraldine to wake up. HAHA!

I was so hungry and fortunately she gave me 3 sets of oreo and choco biscuits.

I have changed my fasting to

7 whole days fasting with my entire church! Woo!!

Through the last few days of fasting, I actually felt spiritually blessed.

Many people asked me why am I fasting for Christmas because it is a happy festive.

However, in my opinion, I think that since Christmas is the season of giving, why not we sacrifice now and receive our rewards at Christmas? My purpose of this fasting is for the salvation of my friends and loved ones. I indeed feel that He is preparing something great ahead and we need to do our part too to archive that with Him. My fasting has proved for paid off as my friends didn’t reject my invitation straight but have some hesitation which means that there is some chances for them to come too!

I’m so going to bake (dunno what) for my friends and cell group for Christmas!

Cannot wait!!!!

Today service is short and I have dinner with ger and gracia only as the rest went for Mel’s birthday.

writtten on saturday during bus trip home after service

randomization

2009-12-03T22:08:00.000-08:00

Caution: Randomization (again)
my life has been rather "happening" lately.
i have lots to say but nothing come out from my mouth.
i love to blog.
but it feels weird when people know something that i didnt tell them before.
so it sort of being "violated".
ya it is ironic since im posting to let the whole world in the 1st place. HAHA
so blogging is actually so dangerous!!!! BUT! it helped me in a great deal recently! heehee!! :)
watever.

i think i need to update my profile cos it is seriously pathetic.
oh well.

i cnt wait for lessons to end today though the thought of Hip Hop class thrill me a little.
i cnt wait for work to end today and im request to take leave for sun night shift. Bless me!
i cnt wait for Overnight Prayer Meeting to arrive cos it is my 1st time going.
i cnt wait to stayover at Ger's house.
and most probably im gg to chat till morning with her and use internet though I seriously deprived of sleep.

it is raining now. and the best thing that ever should happen is class being cancelled and all of us are able to go home and sleep.

I should learn to act more and speak less.

Sometimes, i think that the best person that you ever trust is yourself. Human is fragile yet strong. How ironic. We may think that it is better to share things out to people but there is possibility that your secret is let out. And so, I wonder it is better to shut up or speak up.

as you can see, the entries above are rather illogical cos they have no connections but these are wat run through my mind in the past 15 mins.
HAHA
think i should use twitter instead.
CATS presentation in another 30 mins. haiz.

my dreams are really something that is opppsite from the reality.
but still, ジンゆさんはかわいです。
HAHA!

"Do not judge others if you do not want to be judged." Great.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHERYL AND MUNHAN!!! :)

till next time, folks!
Dec 4, 2009, 2:07pm, Fri. during CATS presentation.

sunday

2009-11-29T08:39:00.000-08:00

ytd should be de last day of work for nurul and me.
but we decided to stay due to many reasons.
HAHA!
we even prepare our resignation letters!
oh well!
in the end, thanks to Mr Chin for speaking up for both of us before Mr Hau about our working schedule and which makes it easier for us to work in de future.
and i didnt realize dat i actually im gg to attend Over night prayer meeting this friday!
and gana's wedding is on this sun!!!!!!!
and i got to work on these two days !!
i didnt realize these till i reached home jus now.
oh mya!
haiz!
break today was the best break ever i guess.
nurul and i were at the top deck and sheela and brenda (not Mummy) were at de lower deck.
practically we jus chatted but revealed so many insider info!
haha!!
great great! cos due to these info dat makes us stay lo.
anw we didnt wan to disappoint our bosses too cos dey treated us very well. (Y)
so nurul, let's press on still!!!! :)

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im going to fast for Xmas celebration on the salvation of my friends.
even if they are alr christian, i wanna fast for them to deepen their understanding for Jesus.
seriously, i cnt wait for Xmas to come!!

[Matthew 6:16-18 ]
16. "When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show men they are fasting. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full"
Amen.

hee hee a good way to diet and save $ too :)
"Show the people how great and loving He is. And to love Him is to love the people"

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frankly speaking, i didnt really go crazy when i 1st saw him ytd.
however, self-fullfilling prophency occured after Ger and lucas teased me! HAHA!
i really thought u are looking at him! haha!
ger, rmb wat u need to do on sat !
and i dreamed abt him again.
and his occupation in my dream makes me ermmmmmmm.........HAHA!!
that's all folks!

nov 30, 2009, 1238am, monday

updates

2009-11-28T08:59:00.000-08:00

liping's wedding was a blast!
view fb!!
have a happy marriage! May God bless you and Victor!
Way to go! Mr and Mrs Goh! :)

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B&B eyes.
Baby face.
Boy Boy hair.
Neat teeth? Yes.
Cute smile? Yes.
okay i have lost.

nov 29, 2009, 1259am, sun

short

2009-11-23T23:07:00.000-08:00

im here again!
haha!
i think that i used to taking bus now and rather, take a liking on riding it too!
i went to school and home with liping ytd!
it great to find ppl to share school stuff especially she is in NP too!
(Y)
go back home again k!
try 52 next time! u get wat i mean! HAHAH!

i saw brendan cum daddy in this morning!
1st time lo!
he shared with me lot of issues about how to cope with school life.
he told me dat he love to attend classes cos lecturer will share their own experiences.
but funny thing is dat after the chat, i have an urge to skip my 1st morning lecture.
1st. i was cfm gg to be marked as late.
2nd. lecture lay and so rather embarrasing to enter the LT while de lecturer is teaching half way.
3rd. i dun like her lecture
4th. i dun think im gg to pay attention to class either
5th. i think i can perform better if i study myself.

so i skipped class and go Library to study!
haha! productive ya!
and even my friend congrat me dat i skipped cos today lecture has nothing much but jus videos.
wtheck!
okay till next time! =)

3:07pm, 24/11/09, tues (in midst of STATS tutorial)

dilemma

2009-11-23T07:21:00.000-08:00

i wonder if i took the right step.
i know that there is no turning back now but what matters is if I'm happy right?
i couldn't decide if i shld live my life for myself or for others now.
watever.

i believe our encounter is not by concidence but by affinity.
mayb im wrong but at least let me drown in my beautiful illusion for jus 1 sec.
dun burst my bubble yet which protect me from the reality.
can't wait to see you again.

23/11/09, 1121pm, mon

im busy

2009-11-23T07:14:00.000-08:00

Jessie is busy.
i am packed for this whole week.
totally packed.

Mon(today) - organization visit; Hi Club; doing essay

P.S. a large bomb was thrown to our group because the organizor suddenly wants to change our survey questions when we are going to submit our proposal on this thurs?!
plus he sae hypothesis is not really require in research.
OH MYA!!!! all of us have cracked our brain for suggesting de right hypothesis and now he is saying THIS?!

hence, in conclusion, we are gg to redo...hopefully just some parts.

Tues - Class; IP meeting; Jap class; doing essay

P.S. more work since we are going to meet for discussion.

Wed - Class; CATS MSN discussion; doing essay

Thurs - Class; BEHORG essay submission; IP meeting; Presentation; Work

Fri - HARI HAYA! but have to attend Liping's matrimony, Cell group, work (maybe)

Sat - service

Sun - Jap H/W, doing essay (another one), STATS revision for common test; work (maybe)

The following week...

To-do list are
: CATS group assignment 1 ; video, presentation etc
:IP discussion/ meeting/ proposal (Mon)
: CCA (mon)
: Jap (Tues)
: Essay submission (Thurs)
:Cheryl's bday celebration (Thurs)
: Overnight prayer meeting (Fri 11pm to 3am) hope to go but afraid that i dun have time
: Mr Gana's wedding (Sun)

so i only left wed and probably sun to work. wtheck!

i cnt believe im so busy.
yet im still blogging.
i really love blogging man!
sorry to those dat i have asked to go movie with me!
i really wan to watch 2012, Sisters' keeper (over leh), New Moon etc!
so many but i really dun have time.
PCS students are becoming to be workaholic leh.

and please dun tell me " I'm bored" etc cos im not.
every seconds of mine are so precious now!
so wanna date me out?
wait till my holiday comes or 2 weeks in advance. HAHA!

23/11/09, 1114pm, monday

expectations?

2009-11-21T20:08:00.000-08:00

HALO!!
actualli im having a mental block now and so might as well blogg a little 1st?
:)
CG & SVC were good!
however i realized the more i expect something, it will turn out otherwise instead.
eg. i was expecting hip hop would be fun , as usual but never though dat the instructor will be away for 3 wks... i wasnt saying de new inwstructor isnt good but jus dat im not used to his teaching.btw he is NP alumni too.

then came CG. i was expecting the duo mao mao to turn out to be a blast but it was a little messy.
and daddy was delayed to CG cos he got school stuff. so no guitar and yes we qing chang. oh mya! hard to follow and ger sae gan huo che! hhahaah!
however, i love the fellowship after CG!

okay practically we jus stayed behind and do random chatting! <3 <3
dey were suggesting to go eat on wed night but im not sure of my work yet.
wtheck lo! i told my supervisor like last fri on my schedule and she forgot?!
i need to change job (again)!
i would like to go but i really have no time and $... :(
watever.
and weekly service!
i was anticipating pastor kong but it was Rev Casey Treat instead.
thought that i wouldnt b able to understand his accent but i could actually catch wat his preaching afterall!
GOOD! :)

"so what is your core strength?"

worshipping and praising session were great but i need more space.

i didnt want to stay for dinner ytd but somehow i jus did.
haha!
i shld have sae im gg to stay and so dey wont go kfc. my ban mian! wait for me k!

however something good happened when i totally didnt have any expectation for it!
yes i saw him!!!!!
actually i was already pinning no hope on seeing him cos we sat at the right Alpha seats. so where got such a concidence dat he is gg to do his duty there?
then, miracle happened.
he was playing guitar at the rooftop when i was there for my Bible study.
OH MYA! btw i finished my Getting Started lo!!
at 1st i couldnt really recognise him cos somehow he looked younger leh. (think is bcos of his haircut)
the most impt thing is !!! he knows how to play guitar!
though im not a guitar fan but this shows dat he is talented!
i was so excited dat i called ger and told her i saw him.
haha!
but instead she sae i shldnt called...sad!
yes da jie also saw him leh! finally! and it turned out dat he is in dorcas's colleague's cellgroup.
she sae he looked younger den me. yes he does but it shouldnt b de case if he can b a xx in chc right? hmmm....
den i was wondering if his cell group is gg to sit any near us.
HAHHA! im like a little girl now.
watever.
den a second miracle happened.
i saw him after service!
it was really purely a concidence cos ah gong, ger and i went to the atm.
bcos my card got prob so we stayed longer.
and when we were gg to leave, he walked past us!
so it was indeed affinity cos if we didnt stay longer, we wont b able to see him!
OH MYA! den i told ah gong it was HIM!
and ah gong walked forward to c who exactly is him dat cause jessie chong to go gaga over him
HAHAH! den i asked ah gong to rate him at a scale of 10.
guess wat?!
ah gong gave 8!!!!
i was over the moon! HAHHA!

after dinner, ger and i stayed at JP and chatted. (where are those motivators for me to go home and do assignments?! ) watever.
finally she said them out...after a century has passed.
ger and i think dat that guy initial is D. cos he has the face for such. HAHAH!
derick? damian? daniel?
but i prefer Matthew, Edward (love this name lately which is my Dad's name too), Dylan and Evian?
HAHA
name does make a difference huh?
okay end!

i had my quiet time ytd! yayyayaya! but i fall asleep in the middle. so sad! nvm there is still today! :)
im gg to take God's words as my core which planted deeply within me dat nothing can pull them out ever.

i realized dat friday n saturday are the best days of the week :)

back to essays..................................................................

22 nov, 1202pm, sun

dreams

2009-11-19T07:59:00.000-08:00

credit to flicker.com

on 17/11/09, i had a dream that told me that it was different from other normal dreams.

"i am randomly shading some parts of a dark green background paper with a light green colour pencil. then, it become a very impressive painting where there are a lot of trees with different shades. i cnt even believe i will paint such beautiful things throughout my life. i am shocked.

however, i didnt stop there. instead, i continue to use different colours to shade the paper.

and it become a painting of fluffy clouds with baby blue sky.

at that moment, i realized that the 1st painting was the best and how i wish i could return to the 1st painting instead.

then, i was influenced by someone else to continue colouring though i have no idea how i want my painting to turn out. but i still continued.

i have adopted another technique from someone else to add to my painting. but instead, it destroyed the painting !!!!! of cos not literally but the painting gave a sad feeling which showed like raining and there is a little man at a corner in brown shade."

woke up. haah!!!

By Dream moods interpretation

[To dream that you are drawing, represents an expression of your latent creative and artistic abilities. You need to show your creativity in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on an undecided decision or argument. ]

hmmm.....

so wat the meaning of it?

initially i was interpreting it as i shouldnt jus follow wat people do and instead have my own thinking.

but it may means de undecided decision(s) within me lately.

haizz dilemma.

watever.

good night!

oh ya i dreamed of ah gong on ytd night too. how funny is dat!

goodnight!

19.11.09. 1158pm. thurs

not JESSIE

315th posts

while watching drama

my saturday

future

i didnt realize i actually didnt post this

he is love.

dead

workic term paper

lubby

bad mood

update myself

14 june

:(

29 may

thank You

CUTE TTM

may 18 not 19 or 17

my favourite taiwanese artists

罗志祥 罗志祥

jiayouuuu

this week

smiling!

cold

5 flowers-month

temper

sad yet happy

the 3 words

random

a familar stranger

happy

my God

picss

You are beautiful

feel

help me findddddd

pictures with liping

friday = good day

1 more day to STATS

pm

lalala

nothing special

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a not very saturday de saturday

i dun wan to go chinatown

signing

4th post today

thank you

complain 2

complain

the mathematics of attraction..

wow! 1 feb lo!

the reason y we went toliet for so long

pictures

memories

lov

this week

shop

stronger

new acc

craving

decisions

monday, with a lot of expectation ahead

new skin

thank you

accounts

-

weird

cut

happy times

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last day of 2009 (midnight)

farewell

:(

xmas

smiling

yoyoyo

candlelight service

colourful

man!

罗志祥罗志祥