xiii: you said move on (where do i go)

title: 315th posts
date: Sunday, August 15, 2010
time:8:22 AM

this is my 315th posts.

i need a new start. so blogger thank you for being there all these while but im leaving.
may or not come back.

good bye.

jessie

http://jessiechong9.livejournal.com

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title: while watching drama
date: Monday, July 26, 2010
time:8:55 AM

halo.

im watching Summer's Desire while typing this. HAHA! i jus cannot let my hand be there.

like not doing anything.

so yup blogging is the best. teehee!

just few more weeks and jessie will be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

oh i remember what i wanna post actually leh.

ha!

in my holiday....... i will......

- learn piano at least basic from cheryl! woo!

- work. i havent been working to balance my expenses. >.<

- i wanna go picnic with my family & my baby. teehee!

- catch up with old friends. the older the better. HAHHAA!

- watch moviessss and shows

- MOST IMPORTANTLY, STUDY FOR HEALTHPSY & PSYID.

i see that you have let it go which is good. im glad.

one of the midnight

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date: Saturday, July 24, 2010
time:8:46 AM

do u ever do something for the sake of someone? i bet everyone did this at least once in their life time. but what matterre is not what the thing we doing but who we are doing for.
you can change for the sake of someone but have you ever question who is it for?
do that person really worth of your effort and time?
im like most people, change for our loved ones because we love them and hope they love us more too.
but i am going to change for my mighty Father.
i will start to take my work more seriously.
pay more attention to my speech and action.
also responsible with my outward presentation.
i know that when im doing for You Instead of myself, You will be there to assist me to make all come to pass.
i have seen academic improvement because of Your grace.
i will change for You.
:)

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title:
date: Wednesday, July 21, 2010
time:9:47 AM

this issue is a old topic but it never fails to get people talking.
it brings sweetness as well as agony at times. still, people are still confused. they fear as they dun know what future hold 4 dem or fear that things will go all awry instead.
i have explained like many many times so i didn't wanna to account again what involving in a relationship actually means to me anymore.
... for it is when both believe the right time has come with the right person.
that the time no one can escape too.
no one in the world is 100% design for u, sometimes u have to choose who u Wan to commit to exactly.
He has given us the choice to choose who to love.

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title: my saturday
date: Sunday, July 18, 2010
time:10:31 AM

halo blogger im here again

you are so old-school which makes the owner (me) feel quite unique.

HAHA

i dun like this. it really makes a different for how people response to certain stuff esp when im involved in it too.

of cos i understand that the priorities of everyone are different but it really affect me when ppl are not that enthu as i am. there are still so much for me to learn. so much to adapt to.

to me, saturday is not a saturday without service. so i will rather give up some PCS day just to attend church.

initially i couldnt understand why siqin is so adamant on attending church every weekend and miss going out with us. but yes i understand now.

jus like pastor Aries said that being in the house of God beats being any places else.

last service made me think a LOT.

the people do make a difference but does it make a difference in God's presence?

does the attendances affect or even diminish God's faithfulness?

Never will that be.

worship & praise songs rock! whereby i didnt even realize i stretched my hand so high and wide that they got suan later. HAHA

the message was awesome cos my dear Pastor Kong was de one preaching!

He really very smart-looking despite so many things happened.

Agape love :)

i SHOULD bring my notebook cos there was so much for me to note down and i really cannot type fast using my phone. haiz.

But then, Jessie was cool ytd cos i only bought my bible with me. yes nothing else. how cool! hahaha!

(P.S yes guys that carry a bible (excuse me REAL bible not iphone or itouch) with them are eye-catching)

HAHA

i shall go and pray now while i still have energy cos i hate myself for falling asleep while praying!!!

but i miss the time whereby we look towards service every weekend,

i miss the time whereby we will make so much effort to look at our very best for service,

i miss the time that we crap a little while waiting for service,

i miss the time that we went to the opposite coffeeshop and tabao back to church eat,

i miss the time that we need to worry if we have enough seats and think of many lame ways to book them,

i miss the time that i didnt want to go home and stay as late as possible to chit chat &

i miss the time that i cannot wait for the next saturday to come for service again

i miss these times.

Ciao!

Jessie

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title: future
date: Friday, July 16, 2010
time:10:10 AM

today stats lesson is a chit-chat session.
Mr Tan asked us about why we enter our course and how we find them.... like when we were in year 1.
then what we think of our course so far and our future career..... like we are already year 3.
HAHA!
but we are actually in year 2 now la.
very interesting cos it challenge us to think through what we want in life actually.
i realize nothing much of my goals have changed.
but i more inclined to accept community service work now.

YAY! im so eggcited cos next year we are learning ABNORMAL PSYCHOLOGY!!
yup 1 of de module has changed to this!
exciting yi xia!
i like. :)

local uni wont be my choice.
i will work if there is insufficient fund for me to study aboard. ANU!!!!
and i know wo yao an exciting job career.
i wanna to be in CID in the future.
HAH!
:))

1:09am, sat, Jul 17

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title: i didnt realize i actually didnt post this
date: Thursday, July 15, 2010
time:8:53 AM

this week is another killer. 1 test, 1 presentation, 1 e-learning and 3 deadlines.

wow. very depressing.

i think the lecturer should try taking my course and undergo these to realize that they should be too good friend and set all due together in a single week.

i have fun in school today during project discussion. yes nothing register in my mind at that moment like froze there.and nicole tan was disturbing chrysan and i to pluck her arm hair for her. quite sick ah. HAHA

i feel happy dat chrysan didnt retaliate whenever nicole 'abuse' her cos she will just hit harder.

im not so gentle as chrysan so i kept slapping nicole's arm den suddenly she pinched me so hard- and twice too- plus one more slap at my left hand.

great. blue-black. i should really report to the police.

HAHA!

the first step to counter your weakness and turn them to strength is the ability to identify them.

this is really true as i couldnt believe i "conduct" experiment with myself.

i always have this mindset that if i dun eat, i will have no energy den will nua.

yup is true but most of the time im binge-eating.

like i will skipped one of de meal den my conscious will remind myself dat i shall compensate what i missed earlier and end up eating more instead.

yes, im at the state of dieting right now.

but it is really so difficult to make it come to pass.

i can hold on without eating latest till afternoon den once the hunger pang hit me, my stomach will conquer whatever food i can find.

this is really bad but i couldnt control.

like here my stomach is already so full but i still stuff food in and then result to gastric later.

this is really like im torturing myself physically, emotionally and mentally.

not that i dun want but i couldnt stop.

and i will hate myself when i stuff down those extra food.

but thankfully i think that bulimia and anorexia are disgusting and so i wont resort to them.

however it is really irritating and fustrating that for all the effort that you put in losing weigh makes no difference by the end of the day.

and after years of losing and gaining weigh, i realize something about myself : i tend to lose weigh when i dun really have the intention to do so. (this is ultra true cos i wont always keep track of what i put into my mouth)

secondly, i have no appetite under extreme stress condition. though food is a coping mechanism for me, i realize i couldnt stomach anything under intense pressure. and i really managed to lose weigh while working in UOB previously. so stress that i even afraid to go to the restroom.

that was a nightmare job. luckily it didnt last long too. haha!

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